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tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Somewhere remote and serene with the person I love

I am starting to think I was born incapable of loving somebody like they deserve to be loved. I feel like my mind plays tricks on itself and when I am happy it tells me I am not, and when I am miserable it likes to pretend I am happy until I am 100% completely mentally exhausted and unable to put a smile on. I’m in love, and I’m too scared to admit it. I run away from anything good in my life. I feel like some of the disease my brother has, made its way to me as well. I miss how things were. I miss Jared. I miss Aarien. I miss life and the simplicities it used to hold until I started screwing it all up….. I am wonderful at advice, but terrible at taking my own. I always say, get up move on and make the changes you  want because having self pity is not going to make anything happen…….

I want my life back. It won’t ever be the same… where does my journey go now? Has it just begun or has it just taken a new route?

My computer fiend self has just now entered the Tumblr world….

HAY BIHTCHEZZZ